running in circles, you don't even care that you're going nowhere.

Standing behind a counter flipping the original fat filled patty,
at the age of 45, at one of the not so new
Harvey's planted in a hardware store to feed those
tired after a long day of linen and carpet shopping.
I can honestly state that this must be one of my biggest fears,
end my life in one of the numerous home towns i grew up in.
I dont want the be the mother of one of my past tense best friends,
starting out a part time job at the age of 17, turned full time
job 30 years later. Weekends included also in just another fast food
restaurant. It actually physically pains me too see the potential
wasted, to see the gray hairs grow year after year.
I'm sure she never planned this, i'm sure she never planned on
retiring at the age of 56 at Harvey's.
I'm sure of this because i know no one would plan that.
She likely had some big dreams, leave this small town, make it big,
but something stopped her along the way.
If you really think about it, a persons personal value is only about
83 cents, 50 years back it was around 67, but prices have gone up
over the years. Then again, i'm sure if you had some sort of
value with you, your personal value would go up too.
A diamond ring maybe, something fancy in, or on your hair.
Whoever said "looks aren't everything," was obviously blind.
Go to school, if you look bad, then no one will talk to you,
take a weekly trip to the mall looking 'bad'...scratch that,
if you do take a weekly trip to the closest mall, then you wont
look 'bad'.
Since day one i was taught beauty is pain, age of 5 i sat myself down
for about 3 or so hours to have my hair
- which was much, much too long- brushed, and braided
individually. I'm sure i cried, i was just a bit of a wuss for pain,
but in the sake of beauty, it was worth it.
Its a shame really what you'll do to look 'good'.
And by you, i mean we, and by we i really mean me.
Can we get away?
Far away...
Let’s leave this place
Will you come with me?
Are you down...
To turn your world around
Its you and me tonight...
Leave it all behind
Let’s go for a ride...

but i'm tired of the lying, tired of fighting you.

Chances are, in your lifetime you haven't spent much time thinking about Immanuel Kant. This is likely because of the fact he was an 18th century philosopher from Germany. He spent most of his time thinking, instead of watching television, this is partially because of the fact that living the the 18th century, didn't involve television to watch. He had this idea that if the brain could only think in a form of causality -which he was later able to prove correct- then we are able to know, before even testing an object, that it must have some sort of cause, or reason for being there. This also meant that everyone had some reason or another for being here, this would make anyone feel pretty damned important to know that they were good for something. To know we have a purpose for being here. The main problem is that most people never find out this reason for being here, we're all either too busy planting our faces in front of television cassettes. Those that aren't pay too little attention to see the amazing things happening around them. Muriel Rukeyser once said "The universe is made up of stories, not of atoms". Its a nice thought, maybe every one's purpose is to create a story, every one a little different.