Me and my heart we got issues. Don't know if i should hate you, or miss you.

I feel like i'm in too deep, like i feel that i need this more than i really do. That i need this more than anyone else would. I crave it. Not that i'm not having the feelings returned, but... i don't know. I just feel like a little puppy, who refuses to be alone. The way i always want to be near you, to talk to you, just to have some sort of contact. Its pathetic. The way you're always on my mind. Or its like i'm lost at sea, and the only thing on my mind is getting home, except its not exactly home i'm thinking of. Well, in a way you are like home, depending on what exactly you consider home, not the place you live, but a place that you know you're safe. You're the closure and safety, the warm fireplace and white picket fence i've always dreamed off. The things that the girl always gets in those movies, but never in reality. Turns out i do get a bit of a happily every after, for the time being. But, even though i know how you feel, i still don't believe it, i still cant help thinking that i'm in this more than i should be. I can't help but worrying about the worst, the worst things possible, of course that's what i think, but still deny. They're there in my mind, but i'm trying hard to think otherwise. I know that your not like that, that you wouldn't be the kinda of person to do that, but its hard. Hard after one too many broken promises.